I’ve been doing some research…

Looking into the meaning of what goes through a guys mind when he kisses you on the top of your head.

Obviously they can’t tell me exactly what my ex was thinking, and it wasn’t just the kiss that made me hopeful, it’s the way he cradled me, held me close to his chest and let my arm latch across his body. And we lay on the bed like that for a good few minutes, I honestly wish I knew what was going through his head at that point, or intact… I might not have wanted to know.

But with all the digging I’ve been doing, experts say that it’s a great sign of tenderness, respect, affection and I’m sure I saw somewhere that it could mean he was being protective, because in all honesty, it felt as though he was protecting me… I don’t know what from, but he definitely was. 

Of course it isn’t all sexual, he could just care for me deeply and care for me as a friend, but we’ve only been friends whilst we were in the relationship together. We got to know each other properly when we were dating, whilst we had intense feelings for one another, and we became friends through our relationship, he was the person I told absolutely everything to, yet I could also have whenever I wanted sexually. Our relationship worked so well. 

There’s also an upside to this though, experts say that he could still like me but is too shy to aim for my lips. 

I don’t know, why would he make so much effort to come to a party in which nobody knew if he was definitely coming to just to talk to me? And why would he let me hug him for so long? Why would he hug me for so long?! 

I just got so nervous around him, the sick feeling came back, I felt good whenever I made him laugh or smile. 

Ugh, if I work my arse off at work and concentrate on my college work, and forget about guys for a bit (or try to), would the universe be so spectacularly kind to me? I promise to do anything I can to do good for the world to get this guy back. I would do anything for him, absolutely anything.